felt better after 2 hours of Restorative Training `
( Mdm Yak suddenly told me Soong asked me to stay for detention reason being , i was late for school last week . )
that is so idioic ! last week de thing today den say `
anyway today's detention was indeed meaningful `
Mdm Yak came to look at me in the Restorative Training Room ( they've got such a nice term for DTC ! )`
she asked if i had things to do ` i asked her if she's anything for me`
and she gave me a book .
An assessment book` i was shocked when i heard that `
at that instant moment i felt guilty `
guilty for not working hard in Chinese Language for the past few years `
felt guilty and glad that actually i have such a good chinese teacher `
i've never hated any of the chinese teachers but i detest chinese language in the past` not as much as maths`
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'' i dont understand why some people tell me its february now and
its a waste of time and that it is too late to back out of sec 5.
why cant it be taken as learning some extra things during free time before going to ITE's April intake ?
what is so wrong with backing out now since its only february ?
it beats struggling in studies doesnt it ?
i've never intended to take O's in the first place.
i was merely given a chance to choose between the two ways.
i've totally No hopes in myself.
everyone should know where their limit is.
to me , i think the Furthest i can go is just get a pass in O , definetly not with flying colours. ''
this was what i typed in my handphone earlier on today.
even my favourite subject i find it hard to cope with producing a nice coursework within expected duration.
sometimes i felt like trying real hard .
but sometimes , when i look at myself and the work , it felt so awful .