i tot of living this holiday without the need to face some people `
but the truth is when i see their faces i cant hold it but to tell myself in my mind " Losers . Fakers. "
i despise them.
what they say & what they do , 0% match `
although no hurt has been done on me, but as a 旁观者，i feel so pity for their victims.
SO.
Very.
Extremely.

i dont know why fate has scheduled for me to stand at a side and see all this `
but i also think that im not scheduled to Watch this.
maybe the same thing happens behind me too .
its just that im unaware .
just like how i feel towards / see those victims as.

i really hate this kind of people.
i know its not worthy for me to feel unhappy about this kind of people during this kind of time.
i should enjoy my free time and get a break.
take up the courage that i have buried.
live the life that i had chose to slept through.

i know. but i think i simply had too much to say within me.
i dont know how the hell i managed to live all these while.
reality is harsh.
everything is possible
every type of people also have.

jin mei , just continue to be who / what you said before all these `

" no matter what kind of environment i live in , i will still be me. i dont want , and i wont change."

now, im going to enjoy my holiday.
fkers, pls get the fk out of my life / brain ` now.