what had i done to deserve all this ? mum `
why are you so frustrated with me when i talk to you ?
am i really such an eye sore to you ?

i've been dying to know this answer since primary school .
i thought you treat everyone of us the same .
but i'd seen it for myself , so many years ,
no.
only me.
only me you're so unhappy with .
i dont know why .
i need an answer .
nowadays , its deteriorating .
i dont have an answer to why is this so.

the nearest person to me seems to be the furthest .
i wanna work . then i wont have much time to come and bug you ( if you feel that im a bug )
then perhaps i wont even have the chance to talk to you for more than 2 sentence each day .
perhaps then , you wont feel so frustrated .

i wanna work . i wanna work to keep myself busy . so i wont see your frustrated face .
so that i can feel better .